A small update

Romans 8:28 

28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

I got 7 vials of blood drawn yesterday. 

They are running some special tests - I've got some odd reactions going on. I’ve got the shakes, actually. My legs and my hands. I don't think it’s related to my bone marrow transplant. But who knows, really?

Doctor visits.

X-rays.

Blood draws.

Not feeling well.

Being tired all the time.

Having to ask friends for rides to appointments.

I’m sick of it. All of it.

I want to go back to 2013. Before I had cancer. Before I even knew what leukemia was.

Back to when my kids were still home and they ran through the house laughing and fighting.

I feel like it was October of 2013 and I was told I had leukemia - I turned around - and suddenly it’s 2019 and I still feel like crap.

The shaking makes it hard to type and write. But I wanted to get out how I was feeling. 

I try to focus on the good things.

I feel better than when I had my bone marrow transplant in 2015. And I feel better than I did most of 2016. But I’m not feeling as if I’m improving at a steady rate anymore. 

I guess I’ll see how this latest lab work shakes out. (Ha, get it, shakes?)

And, most importantly, I haven’t lost faith. I still believe God heals and that all things work together for good. <><