I froze. It actually took me a few seconds (that felt like minutes) before I actually took the envelope. I went to sit down and wait to be called back for clinic.
Every week I go to the BMT Clinic. They access the sexy port in my chest (I'll spare you a picture), take anywhere from 4 to 34 tubes/bottles of blood and take my vitals. Then I either see one of the four transplant doctors or one of the nurse practitioners. Oh, and I get "repletions" (hate that word) if needed. Magnesium, platelets, blood, etc.
So I'm waiting to be called back for clinic and I can't seem to bring myself to open the letter. I held it. Turned it over and over. Excitement and amazement and guilt and rolling around.
Yes, guilt.
I should have written a letter to my donor before he wrote to me. I should have written a letter to him back in November when I received his amazing, selfless gift that saved my life.
Here's what I know about him.
He's a "young" man from Germany with the same blood type as me. That's it. That's all I get until the records are unsealed. I think it's 3 years for international donors? Be the Match has lots of information on what kind of contact donors can have with recipients.
After what felt like ages, I opened the letter.
Obviously, it's been roughly translated from his German language. But his heart translates beautifully.
I treasure this.
YES I could celebrate Christmas with my family.
YES strength has gotten me to this point so far.
YES it has gone well.
Oh, wow. Just wow.
What he gave me is another chance at life. A whole new life.
Now, what am I going to do with it?
*I did write him back. I just can't share it.
Patti,
ReplyDeleteMy heart is busting with joy that you heard from your Donor! My son Jordan was Organ Donor and we have heard from all five of his organ recipients. I will have the privilege of meeting his heart recipient in the coming weeks! The miracle of organ and blood transplants have given renewed hope for a future to you and so many. I'm humbled and blessed to have you has my friend! I'm grateful to be a Donor Mom and so proud that my son "checked the box" at the DMV. Love you!
Hi Patti -- this is Michele McKeever. Remember me from Auburn/ZTA? Sending lots of love and good thoughts your way. Your wonderful spirit shines through in these posts.
ReplyDeleteOh Patti, this has me in tears! Loving tears both for you and your donor! I hope that one day you will meet him and share the love he has given to you. This is just awesome.
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